difficult to decide the girl

i was trying to find a girl to whome i dont have to impress, and not do extra efforts. coz it was only for loosing virginity.first i think of paridhi, i tried with her bt aftr 2 days i understood that she s hard to impress. aftrt it i thought of smita , for her i tried 1 month .gave a lots of efforts but it was very difficult to take her wih me.i got a lots of chances to impress her but i didnt dared them. my classmates said " abe kya yaar tuje b yehi mili???koi achhi wali pasand karta "she was not so cute to be made girlfrnd. she was so slim that if i fuck her she may got to die . than i thought try anywhere else.third girl was of course anamika nagar , my ex-girlfrnd. 3 days i lived most of the time with her ,then on 4th day i proposed her . but hard luck . she was in dreams . she had a rich boyfrnd now . why shoud she except me??. then i decided not to go for girls (that doesnt mean i followed boys) i was tired of trying impressing girls. i think two weeks passed and again shubham said "she is coming again to my home tomorrow."then i got disturbed . i than decided " ab to kuch b ho jaye , londi ki ga*d to marni hai ."

at shubham's home

hey palash its 10:30 plz now go 2 d nxt room she is about to come,'shubham said'.i replied "will she realy come ?.oh yes ofcourse..he said...i was on shubham's home from morning 9 and her gf was coming to his home at 10:30 they planned to have some sex. 2 minute later gate sound, we were on 2nd floor we looked from window, this was her gf. it was hard to believe for me . i ran towards nxt room so that she cant see me. i opened the door and came back and said"hey dont forget to keep the window open.okkk, 'he replied'i again ran to nxt room . aftr 5 minutes i returned to his room and peeped from window.oh !!!!!he was on her pressing her boobs. i saw whole task . when i was back going to sleep i remembered of it . whole night i kept thinking that i must do some sex. than from nxt day i just looked each and every girl , which will be the perfect one.